S.W.

For countless nights I ran for countless miles in fear that someone - or something - was in pursuit of me.
Suspended in time, suspended in my own denial I misconstrued the chase.
I made up the place, the scenery.
"Forgive me, I'm weak. Forget what you feared in me," cried the voice calling out from my feet.
"Forget what you seek, I am the shadow beneath."
All along it was my shadow, but unlike yours it did not follow,
But instead took me to your bed where the crows were picking at your reddened rosary.

A shadow impeding, the crows keep feeding.

While history repeats, I'll scatter the ashes.
I'm faking sleep while time elapses.
Give us this day our morning masses.
The mourning can wait as the body relapses.


"And I don't want to be another stranger" a stranger in your vacant eyes
"Cuz if it's meant to be, then the love we savor," will be replaced with our lies 
"And you can look at me, and say that I saved her,
But I'm no angel, I'm just another staple. I'm just another staple."


To reach the end is a false hope.
I'm playing pretend in order to cope
With the inevitable cycle of becoming the horror
I once considered an idol.

While you're staring back into hollowed eyes,
I will detract from his disguise.
The surface lacks a certain luster,
A certain mystery no god can muster.
I've stripped the outsides, I know where the truth hides.


For countless nights I chased your shadow
In hopes that mine would shortly follow,
But all I found was a hollow man
With a hollowed chest laid to rest,
Laid to rest.
Lay to rest his head.
His head is heavy with regret,
And my hands are a close second.

I don't sleep much these days.


To reach the end is a false hope.
I'm playing pretend in order to cope
With the inevitable cycle of becoming the horror
I once so gladly feared.

Your father is sleeping, enjoy the reaping.

TAY SWIFT 4EVA!

Something different. First video shot on my Sony A57.

The Alex Show - Episode 41

Vicarious happiness is not true happiness. Sometimes it is necessary to be selfish.

Reflectors

You can't crack a perfect hole in the pavement.
You can't build a city out of debris.
You can't be a captor to my enslavement
Without throwing rusted chains at my feet,
But you see through me.
You see through me.

You see through every little lie and my deceit,
You see through every loving gesture I've faked.
You can't shake out all the dust from the backseat
Without keeping all the dead men awake.
Yeah, you see through me.
You see through me.

Don't question the words I'm not telling.
You can't purchase the guilt I'm not selling.
All along you've been convinced
That you're a maiden, I'm your prince,
But now you know it's all pretend.
It was only an act to trap you in the end.

You can't crack a perfect hole in the pavement.
You can't build a city out of debris.
You can't be a captor to my enslavement
Without throwing rusted chains at my feet,
But you see through me.
You see through me.

Don't question the words I'm not telling.
You can't purchase the guilt I'm not selling.
All along you've been convinced
That you're a maiden, I'm your prince,
But now you know it's all pretend.
It was only an act to trap you in the end.

Standing there, perched atop your kill.
Standing there, perfectly still.
Standing there, perched atop your kill.
You lost your thirst.
You lost the thrill.

All along you've been convinced
That you're a maiden, I'm your prince,
But now you know it's all pretend.
It was only an act to trap you in the end.

Stagnant Hearts

I tried to hold tight, but she slipped right through my fingers.
I tried to forfeit this love, but still it lingers.
It's still bringing me up and down and up again.
It's a fight that I might never win.

But honestly, why would I succumb
To a humdrum life with nothing but the sun?
Stagnant hearts need to run.
It needs to rain sometimes (it needs to).
It needs to rain sometimes (it needs to).
It needs to rain sometimes.

I tried to hold tight, but she slipped right through the holes.
I tried to do right, but I lost sight of my goals.
It's still bringing me up and down and up again.
It's a fight that I might never win.

But honestly, why would I succumb
To a humdrum life with nothing but the sun?
Stagnant hearts need to run.
It needs to rain sometimes (it needs to).
It needs to rain sometimes (it needs to).
It needs to rain sometimes.

You can sit, you can wait for brighter days.
I'll admit that the weight of this rain can derogate,
But sometimes it needs to.

I tried to hold tight, but she slipped right through my fingers.

But honestly, why would I succumb
To a humdrum life with nothing but the sun?
Stagnant hearts need to run.
It needs to rain sometimes (it needs to).
It needs to rain sometimes (it needs to).
It needs to rain sometimes.