Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Monoliths End

The wolves at night are nowhere to be found.
There's not a single howl.
There's not a single sound.
All this calm is driving me insane.
I call for clouds to come
To come and bring the rain,
But rain won't fall when you tell it to.
You cannot be brazen with a maker's view.
Control what's around you.

February, you were oh so very cold,
Kept the young and hid the old.
How was I supposed to know?
February, I could never let you go.
You kept a fraction of the whole.
Now I'm missing part m'soul.

The sky at night is nowhere to be seen.
The shades of blue and gold
Are now a blackened screen.
And if I die before I sleep
I pray the earth my body keep.
Control me, control you.

February, you were oh so very cold,
Kept the young and hid the old.
How was I supposed to know?
February, I could never let you go.
You kept a fraction of the whole.
Now I'm missing part m'soul.

Sunday, July 31, 2011

Threatened by Legend

Call it legend when the cameras decode my face.
No matter how portrayed, it won't change.
Congratulations, you have won nothing.
My existence can't abate all the reasons you're afraid.

I thought I had you when the road cut short.
Oh, Deceiver, I've deceived you,
So now I'm pleased to disbelieve you.

Pray you nevermore have the strength to reach the shore
'Cause once you're back I'll settle the score.
Pray you evermore that I'm locked behind this door
'Cause once I'm out I will even up the score.

Call it legend that the door can break.
No matter how portrayed, my body still remains
Untouched, unscathed by any blade.
Design a barricade to keep my will at bay.

Pray you nevermore have the strength to reach the shore
'Cause once you're back I'll settle the score.
Pray you evermore that I'm locked behind this door
'Cause once I'm out I will even up the score.

I can't believe this,
A bane with no disdain,
Infected by the source from which it came.

Define a curse.
I'm well rehearsed with breathing fiction.
Provide me my addiction
To break hearts beyond repair.
I am blessed to breathe your air.
I am blessed to breathe you in.
I am blessed.

My blood is cold.
My bones are old,
But you still have them.

- afm

Monday, July 25, 2011

Secondary Surface

The waves create a comely scene,
A sighting so inviting that no living man can seem
To gaze away. Though once pristine,
That brilliant shore is nothing more
Than a gorgeous fallacy.

Move faster.
Disaster is right on course,
And Nature shows no signs of remorse.

Take shelter in this casket.
Decorate the catacombs.
No grave can be a home
If you're digging on your own.

The virgin ground is pure and sound,
But silence can be violent when it forces noise to drown.
The margins have been crossed,
And all is lost in the flittering of dust,
So now we must find solid-ground.

Move faster.
Disaster is right on course,
And Nature shows no signs of remorse.

Take shelter in this casket.
Decorate the catacombs.
No grave can be a home
If you're digging on your own.

In exile, you'll wonder
How you wandered this far,
How you crawled in the dark.
Unabashed by all your faults,
Unaware of all your flaws
In the darkness you will crawl back home.

You'll crawl back home,
And dig that grave all on your own.

- afm

Thursday, July 21, 2011

In Accordance to Prophecy

The turning of the year precedes our fate,
An anagram to solve.
In everybody's ear I am coiling their will to withdraw.

Claim to know me.
Dare speak my name,
Aware that once exclaimed
I'll seek them out.

This ends tonight.
A wrong can make a right
If you can fake the wrong direction.
Confess your crimes.
They can't be justified
If your noble lips are constantly shut tight.

My mind can read what your eyes have seen.
I'll catch you while you sleep.
A cant can't save thee from the prophecy.

Claim to know me.
Dare speak my name,
Aware that once exclaimed
I'll seek them out
Again.

This ends tonight.
A wrong can make a right
If you can fake the wrong direction.
Confess your crimes.
They can't be justified
If your noble lips are constantly shut tight.

Claim to know me.
See this barren form I've cursed.
Take his life, and end your thirst.
Breathe in slowly.
I'll be sleeping sound tonight
When your eyes go red to white.

Keep your fucking lips sealed tight.
All your words can't justify your actions.

You're wasting your breath to whoever will listen,
But it's unyielding Death who needs the convincing.

- afm


Sunday, July 3, 2011

As Dionysus Once Told Me

Fight water with fire;
You'll drown out the fuse.
Fight water with water;
You'll never win, you'll never lose.
You played it safe.
Now slip into the deluge.

Hold on forever;
Your arms will surely fall.
Stand strong forever;
Impossible. You need to fall,
So rest your limbs
Or lose them all.

Weep over your mother;
Your tears won't give her life.
Sleep off them tremors;
Once you wake, you're numb inside.
So lay back down
If you're so set to die.

Fight water with fire,
You'll drown out the fuse.
Fight water with water,
You'll never win, you'll never lose.
You'll never change.
No, you can't be saved.
You needn't pray
When it's the gods who fix the duels.

Thursday, June 16, 2011

Code Burgundy

Cease from quoting biblical lines.
Forging faith won't wake you.
Open your eyes and still you'll find
A spectral view.

Lucid dreams are confusing my mind.
Keeping clean cannot redeem my life
If it's real this time.

Send the elders to bed with cryptic words.
If they talk don't listen.
Denying the truth can't be deferred
When it's the lie you're missing.

Lucid dreams are confusing my mind.
Keeping clean cannot redeem my life
If it's real this time.

Beside reality,
Mixing present with past and past with fantasy,
Tangled in allusion/illusion,
I fixate on nothing but a cherished dream.

Hypnotize my untrained eyes.
I'm dying to sleep.
I'm dying to...

Lucid dreams are confusing my mind.
Keeping clean cannot redeem my life
If it's real this time.

Lucid dreams are consuming my mind.
Keeping clean cannot redeem my life
If it's real this time.

- afm

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Abyssal Floor

Break from this once stable structure.
Earn the right to be sought out, not cast aside.
A tentative thought will carry you off,
So note to ignore the faintest cry.

Every letter is circled.
Every line rings a bell.
All the numbers are missing,
But when it's solved it will tell
Where the body lies,
And where your head resides.

You're biding all your time
In hoping to recall
The absence in your mind
That emptiness installed.
When was the merger signed?
Who made the curtain call?
Where are your thoughts confined?

We sat in eminence
While laughing at the cancer (at the cancer).
Here's to getting better.
We sat and reminisced
While knowing that the cancer (that the cancer)
Would erase us here and after.

Take the floor out from under.
Take my depleted mind.
See if some other home can be made out of stone
Aside from my heart and my eyes.

You're biding all your time
In hoping to recall
The absence in your mind
That emptiness installed.
When was the merger signed?
Who made the curtain call?
Where are your thoughts confined?

We sat in eminence
While laughing at the cancer (at the cancer).
Here's to getting better.
We sat and reminisced
While knowing that the cancer (that the cancer)
Would erase us here and after.

I've been fighting for too long.
I'm praying to prolong what impends around the bend.
We've had time, but now it's gone.
I'm praying to transcend, though I know you will descend.

- afm

Monday, March 14, 2011

Saturday, March 12, 2011

The Alex Show - Episode 32

No matter how hard we try to control what is around us, we cannot stop the earth from spinning.

- afm

Friday, February 4, 2011

The Alex Show - Episode 31

You're right, the past is past; it doesn't really matter at the end of the day. And it's not who you were back then, it's who you are now. Truth is, that's nothing to me. You're just a second view.

- afm

Saturday, January 29, 2011

Misconstrued

... up.

I sleep inside my boneless hide.
I fake what I have felt.
My mouth is Jekyll, my mind is Hyde.
I jump from pelt to pelt.

I never gave it


chance to grow.
I cut with words misused.
The syllables have all been thrown,
The meanings all abused.

I lie to lie. A hide to hide
A place I called myself,
But if one's to place as if to lie
Then where might be one's self?

If you carry the carriage,
Or something or other,
Then are you the carriage, too?
For marriage is merry until they both bury
The barraged, tired truth:
We
all
fall
down


sometimes.
We
all
fall
down
differently
and
at
different
speeds,
But
we
always
land
in
the
end.
Always.

A merry marriage: A mirage?
Who is
to say?
All I know is that I don't know anything for certain.
All I know is that I have yet to take away much
And still be able to smile
When
I look...

-afm

Friday, January 21, 2011

The Alex Show - Episode 30

An unexpected proposal! A cure for the itch? There is no way of knowing and only one way to find out: jump.

FLASH FLASH FLASH SPIN SPIN SPIN

____: Proposal:
  • __________
  • __________
  • __________
You get: A jump.

Alex:
  • _
  • _
  • _
However, I am dying to go! The core of me wants to do this. Before I take this jump, though, I need a push... a strong push... maybe several.

____: I think it's cool that the core of you wants something it doesn't even know really, but if you're pushed it's not a jump... it's a fall.

Alex: Fine, not a push. More like a boost, if you will. A boost can resort in a lot of things. For all you know, a boost means I will jump farther than I could without one.

FLASH FLASH FLASH SPIN SPIN SPIN

____: Ya know, I thought about it, and it does not matter if you jump or fall, either way you will come back down.

Alex: You never know. Maybe I'll jump higher than planned, and I'll escape this world and its gravitational pull. Maybe nothing will pull me back, and I can just float forever and eternity. Maybe.

FLASH FLASH FLASH SPIN SPIN SPIN

Funny thing is, I sit here typing this when I should be jumping.

- afm

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Lighters

So Jessie got carded trying to buy a lighter. Since when does a person have to be eighteen or over to purchase a lighter in the state of Maryland? Can't a man light some candles on his grandma's 87th birthday cake without plowin' through a pack of matches that will indefinitely burn his fingers at least fourteen muvuckin times? Not if he's underage he can't! How is hipster Jimmy gonna light his incense now? He can't! Great, Maryland. Just fuckin' great. For all I know, little Susie is gonna waltz into her local CVS tryin' to buy some matches because 7-11 wouldn't sell her a lighter, and she'll be friggin' arrested. Little kids everywhere tryna get their lighter fix. "Hey man, you got the fluid?" "Yeah, you got the dough?" Gosh. What is this world coming to? Five billion birds are falling out of the sky and shit, and I can't even buy a goddam lighter without a skeptical look from some dude with a towel on his head. You have a towel on your head, dude, so don't be givin' me that look!

A young brother tryna set the mood: he's got rose petals leading to the bed and shit. Even got a Marvin Gaye, Al Green mix playin' in the background, but the brother doesn't have any dimmers! Muvucka's like "Come in!" Girl starts stumblin' around in the goddam dark. What is he setting the mood for, rape?! Couldn't even have a candlelit dinner. Brother had to tie Christmas lights around the table. Worst date.

All I'm sayin' is, how you gonna chief without a fuckin' lighter? I love weed and all, but fuck marijuana. Proposition 420: LEGALIZE LIGHTERS! Gosh.

- afm

Monday, January 10, 2011

The Alex Show - Episode 29

Lay: to put or place
Lie: to rest or relax

FLASH FLASH FLASH SPIN SPIN SPIN

Alex: Calendars are changing, the world is changing, yet I remain steady. I know it is a bittersweet thing. There is good and bad in everything I do and do not do. I've just been so tired lately. There is a pulse in my brain that I wish to squish, and a pulse in my heart that has yet to start. I feel like a dead vehicle. I still run, I simply need a jump. A jump would be nice. Maybe I'll land someplace new, maybe someplace familiar, or maybe I won't land at all. Maybe I'll fall. To be honest, I wouldn't mind falling. The good thing about falling is that you do not have to move, gravity does everything for you.

_____:

So here I am wanting to jump and fall at the same time, debating which idea is better, knowing that it doesn't matter because I will more than likely end up in the same place: lying.

_____:

FLASH FLASH FLASH SPIN SPIN SPIN




Lie: to intentionally deceive




- afm