Hello, My Name is Goodbye

revised:

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The Alex Show - Episode 32

No matter how hard we try to control what is around us, we cannot stop the earth from spinning.

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The Alex Show - Episode 31

You're right, the past is past; it doesn't really matter at the end of the day. And it's not who you were back then, it's who you are now. Truth is, that's nothing to me. You're just a second view.

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Misconstrued

... up.

I sleep inside my boneless hide.

I fake what I have felt.

My mouth is Jekyll, my mind is Hyde.

I jump from pelt to pelt.

I never gave it

chance to grow.

I cut with words misused.

The syllables have all been thrown,

The meanings all abused.

I lie to lie. A hide to hide

A place I called myself,

But if one's to place as if to lie

Then where might be one's self?

If you carry the carriage,

Or something or other,

Then are you the carriage, too?

For marriage is merry until they both bury

The barraged, tired truth:

We

all

fall

down

sometimes.

We

all

fall

down

differently

and

at

different

speeds,

But

we

always

land

in

the

end.

Always.

A merry marriage: A mirage?

Who is

to say?

All I know is that I don't know anything for certain.

All I know is that I have yet to take away much

And still be able to smile

When

I look...

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The Alex Show - Episode 30

An unexpected proposal! A cure for the itch? There is no way of knowing and only one way to find out: jump.

FLASH FLASH FLASH SPIN SPIN SPIN

____: Proposal:

• __________
• __________
• __________

You get: A jump.

Alex:

• _
• _
• _

However, I am dying to go! The core of me wants to do this. Before I take this jump, though, I need a push... a strong push... maybe several.

____: I think it's cool that the core of you wants something it doesn't even know really, but if you're pushed it's not a jump... it's a fall.

Alex: Fine, not a push. More like a boost, if you will. A boost can resort in a lot of things. For all you know, a boost means I will jump farther than I could without one.

FLASH FLASH FLASH SPIN SPIN SPIN

____: Ya know, I thought about it, and it does not matter if you jump or fall, either way you will come back down.

Alex: You never know. Maybe I'll jump higher than planned, and I'll escape this world and its gravitational pull. Maybe nothing will pull me back, and I can just float forever and eternity. Maybe.

FLASH FLASH FLASH SPIN SPIN SPIN

Funny thing is, I sit here typing this when I should be jumping.

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