One Bedroom Tango

I'm in love.
I'm in love.
I'm in love with the idea of being by myself.
Whether I'm falling in or out, I'm in love.

That's the funny thing
You're always falling
Trying to get up,
But you're always falling.
And if you're standing then it's stagnant,
Standstill, numbness.
So just let go.
Keep falling.

For just this once I want to sit in it.
Breathe it in
Without breathing out
Any feelings of doubt
Without choking on the fear
That I could breathe in air
That is far more clear.
I guess I'll take a different route.
So I exhale
Cuz my lungs fail
To hold me up and keep me intact.
(Falling, falling)
My organs flail
Like a styrofoam cup with a thumbtack in it
And once you take it out
I pour out
Every ounce of love
Every spec of trust
Filling that empty cup with fear
And boundless doubt.
Love turns to lust.
I hope you're ready for the drought.

I'm in love.
I'm in love.
I'm in love with the idea of being by myself.
Whether I'm falling in or out, I'm in love.

"I said I loved you. What happend?
You said you loved me. What happened?!"
I put a spell on you, girl, like magic,
But you believed it to be real.
Now that's tragic.

I'm always drunk.
All I do is drink.
I puke in public restrooms
And piss in every sink.
I'm always on the brink of fighting
The first motherfucker
Across the bar from afar
To mean mug me,
But secretly I know I'll never do it.
It's the same variety as my sobriety,
Secretly I know that I'll never do it.
So come at me bro. Commit to it.
I have other vices
Of all shapes and sizes.
Latin, african, and asian spices.
In a time of crisis I can hit em up,
Fuck,
But it never suffices to the way I feel
When I'm with you.
At least that's what I say
To each and every one of them every single night
And every single day I want them outta my sight.
Now that's the kinda fight I can live without.
After they ride me out
I ride it out.
I listen to their problems,
Head nods, sobbin.
Sad facts, shoulder pats,
Thigh tats, fine ass.
Fuck, I fucked her back to where we started.
Night falls.
(falling, falling)
The bars call.
(calling, calling)
More drinks, more sinks.
More deceptive thoughts I think.
An asshole at heart.
I keep it undercover.
I miss you.
I love you.
Come on over.
She said, "Tell me that you love me when you're sober.
She said, "Tell me that you love me when hungover."
But love is only real to me when I'm making it,
So take it, girl. Bend over.

I'm in love.
I'm in love.
I'm in love with the idea of fucking you up.
Whether I'm falling in or out, I'm in love.

"I said I loved you. What happend?
You said you loved me. What happened?!"
I put a spell on you, girl, like magic,
But you believed it to be real.
Now that's tragic.

That's the funny thing
You're always falling
Trying to get up,
But you're always falling.
And if you're standing then it's stagnant,
Standstill, numbness.
So just let go.
Keep falling.

I restored her faith in humanity?
I oughtta win the award for calamity.
I'm always bored
No matter what we did.
I could not afford to wife her up and have a kid.
I restored her faith in humanity?
I was molding the next Casey Anthony.
I cannot afford to remain in this discord.
Who's that talkin? My vanity/insanity.
It's not my fault that I let her go.
It's not my fault. I had to tell her so.
She said, "Little do you know, it takes two to tango,"
So I told her in this case,
She better learn the Macarena.

- afm